the girl

Examen

Though I don’t do it daily, I should. It’s probably one of the best things converting to Catholicism has done for me — the daily examen. The form I use comes from St. Ignatius’s Spiritual Exercises and has some simple steps:

  1. Become aware of God’s presence.
  2. Review the day with gratitude.
  3. Pay attention to your emotions.
  4. Choose one feature of the day and pray from it.
  5. Look toward tomorrow.

As part of L’s widening spiritual education, she and I have begun doing this together. We’ve been using a podcast to help us out, and we sit in her room and reflect on our day using the podcast labeled “examen for children.” It could really work for anyone, though. It boils everything down to a few ideas.

  • What did you do that made you happy today? Give God thanks for it.
  • What did you do that made you sad today? Apologize to God for it (and it adds that you might need to apologize to a person as well).
  • What do you think you might need help with tomorrow? Ask God for that help.

Tonight, we shared with each other our joyful moments.  It was fairly simple, and we had the same moment: when she and I with E played with Legos.

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What an impressive array of equipment we now have, using the old Legos Nana saved from my childhood combined with the new sets the Girl has been collecting. We have a camper, a log cabin, a yacht, a space craft, an alien ship, an alien prison. We had fierce space battles in the morning and attacks on humans in the evening, with our brave defenders battling the Borg — though I didn’t explain the whole concept of “we will assimilate you!” as I attacked — as they tried to snatch innocent campers from their weekend getaways. The Boy teamed up with me and we launched a fearsome, dual-pronged attack that resulted in the kidnapping of both astronauts and campers. But alas, L and her space cadets were too clever for us and managed to free everyone just in time for bed.

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What joy, I thought as I did my own examen this evening. And what a shame that I don’t do it more often. I let other things get in the way. I become selfish. I too often have different priorities. Not to say I neglect my children, but I think perhaps some days I don’t do enough. And so I resolve to do better the next day, and some days I do, and some days I don’t.

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K, on the other hand, has always impressed me with her selflessness with the kids. That’s a mother’s gift, I suppose. No, it’s not a gift. That takes it out of my control. It’s a mother’s choice. And that is another simple experience — seeing such a wonderful mother in action — to be thankful for during my examen.

Games

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Teaching

Before dinner, K and E sit in the middle of the kitchen floor, working a puzzle. It was the Boy’s idea, his initiative.

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After dinner (more or less), K and L sit at the dinner table, doing Polish lessons. It was K’s idea, her initiative.

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Perhaps if we could figure out some way to make Polish lessons as fun for L as puzzles are for E, we might have more success. And so that’s what I tried, putting on my jester’s hat and giving ridiculously wrong answers to L’s work, getting a giggle and correction.

Posing

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Before It Begins Again

It always goes in a flash, an absolutely yet tragically predictable flash. Two breaths, a party or two, and suddenly we’re eating lunch on the last Sunday of the break. And what a lunch to have, a classic of Polish country cooking: kotlet schabowy with the requisite sauerkraut and potatoes. The Girl loves the cutlet; the Boy loves it all.

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After lunch, we decide it’s time for a walk: after almost three full days of rain, we’re all sick of being inside. The Boy takes his four-wheel coaster, and the Girl opts for a scooter, but putting the Boy on wheels is always tricky: “I’m Lightning McQueen!” he squeals and with each time, rides further and further out in front of us.

“E, if you’re not going to stop when I tell you to,” I explain after he ignores us a couple of times, “you won’t be able to ride this anymore.” It works for a while, but not long enough to get us home, so he finishes up the outing on foot and in tears.

We have to hurry home, though, because K has yeasty dough rising. “Pół godziny!” K insists as we start out, and sure enough, half and hour later, we’re back in the kitchen as K rolls out the dough for what she calls babeczki, which would be tempting to translate as “muffins” but in this case, it would be incorrect.

It’s one of those things I’m unable to translate, something like cinnamon rolls with a plum and apple jam — leftovers from the Christmas Eve compote — in the place of the sweet cinnamon mix.

With a day ending like that, L and I think we can head back to school tomorrow…

Southern Beginnings

Black-eyed peas, cornbread, playing in the sink, being a gaming gadfly — thus starts 2015

First Day 2015

“Let’s go to the airplane park!” There’s a small airport near downtown Greenville which has an aviation-themed park next to it. The far end of the park abuts the runway, and it’s a favorite for the kids: you can play on a fantastic playground, ride your bike around the paved oval circling the whole playground, and watch small airplanes land and take-off.

At the far end of the track, next to the runway, there is a significantly steep slope — significantly steep for a toddler, that is — and it should be a heart-stopping moment every time the Boy roars down the slope. But he does it so carefully, first going down only half the slope, then a bit more, a bit more, until he’s going down the whole thing. He’s so cautious that it takes some of the worry from both K and me. But every time we’re there without a helmet for him, I think, “Drat — should have brought that helmet.”

After dinner, it’s play time. First some family play with E’s fishing game he got for Christmas. We try to teach the Boy how to let the swinging magnet slow so that he can lower it to the fish to “catch” it, but he has a more effective way: simply grab the magnet in one hand while holding the rod in the other. Simple. But eventually we convince him.

Afterward, we split up to have some more interest-specific play. The Boy and I head up to his room to play with his cars. Although we only have the sheriff character from Cars, we choose a car to be Lightning McQueen and another to be Mater and go tractor tipping, just like in the film.

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The ladies, in the meantime, play Ticket to Ride, a train-based strategy game that enthralls the Boy — trains, so of course! — but is obviously too much for his young mind to comprehend.

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Last Things

For weeks, he’d been saying it: “MikoÅ‚aj is going to bring me a police car!” And since MikoÅ‚aj knew of the Boy’s fondness for Cars, he brought not just any police car, but the sheriff from the film.

Then, the day after Christmas, he lost it. The Boy is not one to lose things: he has a fantastic memory of where he left this or that, so K and I figured the obvious: it fell out of his pocket at some point when he was in the backyard helping me with the leaves. So the search began. We looked through leaf piles, walked about in the backyard, checked in the house just in case — no luck.

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Today, while out, L and K looked again. And much to everyone’s delight, L found the sheriff, then reenacted the discovery for the camera.

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I’m not sure who was more excited: E, because his dear sheriff was back, or L, because she found it.

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Sleep

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Long gone are the days when she was the first to wake up, probably because the days she was the first to go to bed are equally long gone. Nine, nine-thirty has been her wake-up time the last few days.

Dual-Play

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It’s fantastic when a single toy entertains both.

The Actual Party

The Girl turned eight last week. Of course we had a party for her, but Nana and Papa, the Boy, Mama, and Tata — well, it’s an alright party, but most of the responsibility for screaming and hyperactivity falls on the head of the birthday girl herself. It’s a big responsibility, and L made a valiant effort, with some help from the Boy, to roust everyone out of their chairs, but mainly it was the Girl’s work.

The setting
The setting

What she needed was, say, three other girls, roughly her age, a load of sugar, some presents, and a sleepover party.

Lighting the candles shortly before
Lighting the candles shortly before
blowing them out.
blowing them out.

It is only then that the full silliness can blossom, for adults don’t really appreciate a little girl’s efforts to blow out her candles with a fully-open mouth like kids would.

Earring inspection
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Arranging the new earrings

Afterward, it was time to organize the gifts. Since the Girl got her ears pierced, all the presents had a common theme, and one cannot just toss dozens of earrings together into a chaotic pile.

Once the sun went down, though, we had only one option: the best lights in town, according to some. Over 350,000 lights, three months to set up, three more to take down — an impressive show.

The adults wandered about, wondering about the motive behind the lights, which surely cost thousands of dollars a year; the kids wandered about, wondering about the free hot chocolate.

Modeling

In education, it’s critical to model. Show, don’t tell.

I teach a creative writing course, which is really “Digital Storytelling,” but that’s not one of the district-provided options for course titles, so I call it “Creative Writing” and do a bit of everything. Right now, students are working on NPR-style audio stories about school events. I thought I’d model it for them. It was kind of fun — perhaps I have a future in radio…

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It started with cupcakes at school.

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A quick Mama/L day followed, with some bouncing

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and ear piercing.

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A chocolate ice cream birthday cake

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and a couple of long-sought gifts rounded out the Girl’s eighth birthday.

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Well, almost.

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Out of the Silence

After more or less two years or so of daily-posting (nearly daily — fell off these last few months, but the 20+ before that make up for the slack), it was time for a beak. A week without is not the same as a week without writing: I’ve returned to my journal, finding the privacy freeing. I can harp about kids in my class by name; I can write put details about our home adventures that would never make it here. But of course that doesn’t mean that the pictures haven’t accumulated, that the list of things to include in our online scrapbook hasn’t been filling up mental list after mental list.

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Grading papers with the Girl: she works on multiple choice while I take the short-answer questions

Without the daily writing after examining the pictures snapped through the afternoon, though the evening, the lists add up to nothing: I can’t remember the thoughts this situation prompted, the connections with this or that.

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A proper Polish Sunday lunch

Writing daily for something available to more eyes than my own turns every instant into a potential paragraph, and I think I’d just had enough of that for a while.

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Riding near Nana’s and Papa’s house

And so last Sunday when we went to Nana’s and Papa’s to help decorate their tree, it was relaxing just to be, not to think about what I might write about this or that.

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Moving to the big bike

I was still a shutterfly, though. When I asked L if she’d like to have our older DSLR when she geets a little bigger, she replied tellingly: “No, Daddy, I’m not going to be a shutter bug like you.”

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Christmas trees and football — the American south at its best

On the one hand, I see that as highly likely. She’s too hyper, too busy, too up to take the time to take photo after photo.

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Independence

But on the other hand, she is terribly creative, always excited about what’s she’s doing in art class or looking to create something new at home. Perhaps the idea of making photo collages might — well, we’ll see.

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Paying attention to the details

The rest of the week went by in a fairly typical fashion: hectic mornings, long days at school that drag because we’re all – all — looking to the coming Christmas break with such longing that it’s difficult for anyone to focus, evenings that slip by before we know it.

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Afternoon in the park with Mama

But with K home now, the overall pace of life seems to have slowed just enough for everyone to catch their breaths before the chaos of the holiday season turns it all upside down again.

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Assembly line

December is just a rush, no matter who’s where. With a birthday, Christmas concerts, a major holiday, the near-end of a semester, parties, and surprise drop-ins from Santa, it’s just a never-ending sprint from the first to the twenty-fifth.

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Santa’s 2014 visit

But as in most families, it’s become something like a yardstick to measure the growth of the year. The Boy, for example, has begun looking beneath the surface of things, to question what he sees. When Mr. F and Mrs. P come over as they do every year dressed as the Clauses, there’s no fooling the Boy. He recognizes the voice, the face, and declares, “That’s Mr. F!”

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“That’s Mr. F!”

But it’s not all surprises and new adventures. Every weekday night still winds down similarly, with someone up in the Boy’s room as he plays with this or that, playing with him, doing one’s own thing, shifting between the two.

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One’s on thing: read, “Take pictures.”

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Station master

Soon the Boy will start complaining about the shutterflies in the house, but for now, he’s able mostly to ignore it if it has nothing to do with what he’s playing at the moment.

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“Daddy, can you make it Emil size?”

Yet with it Advent, there are a few differences during the week. Ladders come out, lights go up,

carols play on repeat.

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“My new car!”

Forwarding Address

We’re a 3/4 Polish family, and so we have to be a little difficult and do things differently. Like celebrate Saint Nicholas’s day, which is on the sixth of December. Which means our kids get two Christmases. Which means the Girl, with her mid-month birthday, get three gift days. Which makes the other kids at school jealous. Hence the difficulty.

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L has become more of a critical thinker regarding the whole process, though. She no longer blindly accepts the seeming omnipotence and omniscience of Santa. Clearly, there are things he might not know. Like the fact that she has changed rooms since last year. Or that her bed is different now, more narrow, with less room for presents. (MikoÅ‚aj doesn’t have a Christmas tree yet to put presents under, so I guess he improvises.)

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“I’m sure he can figure it out,” K explained last night, calming L’s worries. But later in the night, I suggested that we that perhaps we ought to put L’s gift in the Boy’s room, just to see if she figured out what happened. It was when K and I were downstairs, K wrapping newly-arrived presents and I cleaning up what will certainly be the only artifact of humanity a hundred thousand years from now — dried Play-doh. And doing something likely less useful. Like thinking of further Christmas jokes to play on our children.

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Build and Destroy

She built patiently, planning each move, checking, pulling apart, rebuilding. She had a vision — at least an evolving one — and she worked to fulfill it. In her typical fashion, she took a break from building to organize all available components, presumably because she was tired of the try-and-search method. She made the structure as symmetrical as the available components would allow.

And it was another example of what amazes me about our daughter: she can be so incredibly hyper that you’d think she couldn’t focus on anything for more than two seconds. Yet she brings home perfect grades from school, can sit and read for hours, loves to lose herself in painting, and has developed a recent fascination with building (more Legos are high on her Christmas wish list).

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The Boy, on the other hand, had only one thing in mind: knocking it all down. In fact, he joyfully did just that to the Girl’s first attempt, causing much consternation on her part (read: a minor breakdown) and much laughter on his part, until, the sensitive soul that he is, he realized that he’d hurt L.

Yet he did it again. It’s what being two is all about. But it cost him: his newest car went into time out, causing him much consternation (read: complete breakdown).

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Finally, he got the car back, L had the structure rebuilt, and after a quick photo session — that the Girl herself requested — it was time.

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Before E came alone, we warned L that, although she would certainly love him to death, there would be times that little brother would be positively infuriating. “You’ll make something,” we explained as an example, “and he’ll come along and destroy it.” Occasionally, though, it’s just what they both want.

Rainy Sunday

It’s supposed to rain all day today, and it doesn’t disappoint: from the morning, we know that there’ll be no scooters, no jumping rope, no swinging.

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It’s just a day to stay inside, perhaps stay in our PJs for as long as possible.

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We watch cartoons, make wish lists for Santa,

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drink lots of tea and coffee,

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and I grade a mountain of papers before tomorrow’s mid-term grading deadline.

And so now it’s almost eleven, and the only thing I really want to do is sleep.

Autumn Portraits

This time of year, we always get everyone together for a full family portrait. We go to a park or just pile up some leaves and get a few shots of the four of us, the six of us, the two of them. This year, with a carpet of yellow in the backyard, there was only one option.

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First, the Girl and I went out for some test shots while the Boy took his nap. The light was just right, but Nana and Papa weren’t due for another two hours, so I went in and arranged an earlier arrival.

In fact, though, the light had been absolutely sublime in the morning.

But who wants to head out at eight in the morning in sub-freezing weather for portraits?

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But light is light: unless you’re shooting in the middle of the day without any shade, a little creativity can produce good results no matter the angle of the light.

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Besides, there are always props and post-processing. On second thought, perhaps the clothes are a bit off. Oh well.

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It’s the idea that counts in art, isn’t it?

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