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First Day 2012

Who knows how many times I’ve done it. If I had to count, I probably could count how many “first days” at school I’ve experienced. With time on both sides of the desk, I suppose I’d have to be now nearing thirty first days.

But I still remember my first first day. Some degree of nervousness, some level of excitement, some small amount of disappointment mixed with a great deal of joy.

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I would like to think the Girl will remember her first first day. That she will remember how the night before her worries and fears melted in the morning to a smile and a paradoxically calm excitement.

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That she will remember her idea to have a desert picnic after dinner. That she will recall her planning and packing for the picnic.

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That she will linger over the memory of cuddling up to her mother, snuggling with her baby brother.

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And that she’ll think of that first day every time she sees an ice cream truck.

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Another End

How many ends can we face? The end of elementary school; the end of a fable; the end of a friendship; the end of a marriage; the end of a book; the end of an evening; the end of a song; the end of a project; the end of a journey; the end of a sunrise; the end of a bike ride; the end of a cigar; the end of a sunset; the end of a relationship; the end of a concert; the end of a line; the end of a story; the end of a caress; the end of a smile; the end of a blog post; the end of a bottle of ginger ale; the end of middle school.

Weren’t we all so broke by endings when we were young? Weren’t we so unable to discern the difference between “the end” and a conclusion?

Today, two hundred and fifty — if not more — eighth graders met another in countless endings. For some who’d lost a parent or a sibling, it paled in comparison. For others, it was a tearful afternoon. Those who don’t know will all learn soon enough.

Peer Review

It's nearing the end of the school year, which means my English I students are tackling the year's final project: an analysis of some facet Victorian England that is clearly evident in Great Expectations. Social class, adoption, education, and gender roles are popular motifs.

This year, having access to seemingly endless articles on JSTOR, I've decided to make the project a bit more challenging. After printing out twenty-five or so articles from peer-reviewed journals, I inform the students that we're going to do this one "old-school."

"No web pages as research sources."

The groans are audible throughout the school.

I flop five inches of journal articles down on a chair in the front of the room and explain that this is going to be one of their primary sources of information. We review how to skim a text effectively; we practice with a text projected on the board; we talk about the difficulty of the language; and I turn them loose.

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Soon, kids are getting excited about titles like Alastair Owens's "Property, Gender and the Life Course: Inheritance and Family Welfare Provision in Early Nineteenth-Century England," struggling with passages like this: "Among families, property rights shifted according to changing circumstances and as individuals moved through their lives. Inheritance was obviously a unique phase in this life course, characterized by social and proprietorial upheaval." Fairly straightforward for adults; a struggle for young readers. But these are not kids who give up quickly, so they constantly call me over with the same request: "Can you read this passage, then listen to what I think it says, and tell me if I'm right?"

Others are combing through F. M. L. Thompson's "Social Control in Victorian Britain" in the hopes of finding something about the effects of the sense of genteel society on social behavior. Or, as they put it, how society and popularity in the upper class are related. Or something like that. I'm not quite sure I understand some of their topics, and I'm not sure some of them do either. But no worries. That's part of the point.

"What if we don't find anything for our topic?" becomes a common cry.

"Then I guess you'll change topics," I say, and sit with the frustrated student to help him find a way to narrow, broaden, or slightly shift his topic.

Their frustration seems overwhelming.

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"How can we get all this research and writing done in just a couple of weeks?" is another common concern.

What they don't realize -- what I don't tell them -- is that the paper itself is of little importance at this point. Like so many things in life, it's the process. The struggle.

"I want them to have the experience of digging through a journal article only to determine that it's not of any use to them for their topic," I discuss with a colleague later. "I want them to struggle defining and redefining their research question as they find materials that shift their thinking."

By the third day of research, kids are taking copious notes (and I frustrate them by saying, "There's a good chance that twenty to thirty percent of these notes won't end up in your final paper"), sharing resources ("Allie, I know you're working on education, and this article on social class actually has something on education, too. Want it when I'm done?"), and actually smiling from time to time.

Hypothetical Exchange

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Photo by Mike Fisher

Girl 1: Did you lose your phone?

Girl 2: Yeah.

Girl 1: What for? For cussin' out your mama?

Girl 2: My mama don't care if I cuss her out.

Girl 1: Then what'd you lose the phone for?

Girl 2: I don't know.

Greater Expectations

It’s the end of the year, which means the English I students are tackling Great Expectations, having just finished a brief overview/review of clauses and sentence types. “To understand Dickens,” I explained a couple of weeks ago, “you have to break apart some of his incredibly complex sentences into manageable chunks.” So we practice: every day, students entering class are greeted by a few sentences of from the previous evening’s readings. The bell-ringer, starter, whatever you want to call it:

At the appointed time I returned to Miss Havisham’s, and my hesitating ring at the gate brought out Estella. She locked it after admitting me, as she had done before, and again preceded me into the dark passage where her candle stood. She took no notice of me until she had the candle in her hand, when she looked over her shoulder, superciliously saying, “You are to come this way today,” and took me to quite another part of the house.

Students cross out unnecessary phrases — prepositional, gerund, participial — and try to find the gold: a single subordinate clause. “If you find a subordinate clause,” I explain, “you know it’s either a complex or compound-complex sentence; if you don’t, you know it’s a simple or compound sentence.”

The results are improving daily.

Work

One class began working on Flowers for Algernon.

Another class continued with Great Expectations.

Still another class began looking at the notion of voice in writing.

Busy day back.

Preparing

The day before school starts again, I always get a bit nervous. What's the return going to be like? Is it going to be like pulling teeth to get them to work? What will their attitudes be like? What will my attitude be like?

Spring Break?

The first day of spring break 2012 proper, and it starts like any spring day should: sun, warmth, clear light. Freshly emerged leaves offset the patch of Azalea blue (or is that purple? I've never checked, i.e., asked K) in the back corner. It would be great to be out in the warmth, to do some work on our small raised-bed garden, to work up the first sweat of the year. The grass needs mowing; autumn's leaves need raking; the raspberries need netting shortly -- yet none of these are options.

April Morning

With a major paper due in a week, I'm sequestered, reading through articles, planning an attack, drowning in coffee and tea.

I spend the day filling a folder with articles from JSTOR, Gale, and seemingly countless other online resources that make it possible to research most anything from home. Then I write, write, write.

"In calling these stories 'parabolic,' we encounter an critical etymological parallel with geometry."

Did I really just write that?

Still, I take my own advice, the mantra to my students that I seem to chant daily: "It's a first draft. Don't worry about making everything perfect -- or even close to it -- in a first draft."

Evening approaches and with it, new tasks. I help the Girl get ready for bed; I trim tenderloin and prepare the brine for smoking later this week. K reads the Girl stories and prepares a salad for tomorrow's lunch. Having to go to work tomorrow, she trundles off to bed; I sit down once more at the computer.

Others I'm sure are enjoying a first evening at the beach or the sounds of crickets at a mountain retreat. Me, I'm just ready to turn out the lights and head to bed.

At Work

At times I want to strangle them. Sometimes, five minute later, I want to hug them.

Lent 2012: Day 30

There is always one bright thought in our minds, when all the rest are dark. There is one thought out of which a moderately cheerful man can always make some satisfactory sunshine, if not a sufficiency of it.

Sometimes, I wonder. Some of the students I work with on a daily basis seem to have few bright images in their minds. Life is a constant crisis for them: everything from someone bumping them in the hallway to a perceived injustice from a teacher sets them off. They wear a scowl on their faces most of the time, and life seems to be one big trial for them.

Faber, in the quote above, is speaking of the belief in a joyous afterlife, but sometimes I wonder about the usefulness of that hope for someone who's already lost all hope for a happy life here and now, and all by the age of fourteen.

The quoted excerpt is from Father Frederick Faber’s Spiritual Conferences, excerpted here.