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John Paul

Poland produces a revolution every five hundred years, and it’s always the same revolution: a man comes along and challenges the way we all look at the universe, challenges us to stop thinking we’re the center of the universe and that all things circle around us.

Copernicus was the first, at least in the western world, to suggest that the Earth was not the center of the universe. He dethroned the heady notion that literally everything revolved around us, and modern science has pushed us to the point of virtual cosmic insignificance.

Karol Wojtyła, with his famous words, “Do not be afraid,” challenged us to stop thinking of ourselves as the center of our own worlds. Love is the greatest of all these, said Saint Paul, and John Paul, in his insistence on the universal recognition of human dignity and freedom, showed how to put that into practice.

“Nie lękajcie się!”

Don’t be afraid.

Fear not.

How can we not fear? Look at the world, and the injustice that hounds it, and it seems the only thing we can do is be afraid. How can that possibly work? Perhaps when we start following John Paul’s example and love others more than ourselves, we will stop fear. After all, what is fear? It’s fear of what will happen to me. When I start loving others more, I stop thinking of my self so much, and I stop fearing.

John Paul in that sense was a Copernicus for the soul.

Smoke and Mozart

We were in Adam’s bar with Johnny, Kucek, and Marta. I was playing chess with Rafał, and I heard Mozart’s Requiem and though I didn’t consciously think it, I knew what had happened. After a few moments, Kinga called my name (they were sitting behind me) and told me. I turned to Rafał and told him, then suggested we put the chess away.

I went back to the table where everyone else was sitting, and we just sat there quietly for about ten minutes. No one was saying a word. I can’t remember who initiated it, but someone said, “Idziemy?” and we all got up and left the table covered with full beer glasses and extinguished, half-smoked cigarettes.

Without saying, we all began walking up to the church. No one said, “Let’s go to the church,” we all just headed there. As we were walking, the fire station’s siren began wailing. It was strangely and peacefully quiet other than that.

We got to the church and it was locked. It had been open all day, and the night before, for prayers, but it was closed. “They’ll come open it,” I told everyone confidently.

“There’ll be a mass going within half an hour,” I said. But we stood waiting, and nothing.

After some time a nun walked into the church, and the bells began ringing, but the front door never opened. We walked around to the door to the sacristy to ask the nun if they were going to open the church. We stood there waiting, and just as she was coming out, another group of three young people – two girls and a young man of about nineteen – came up.

“Is the church going to be opened?” he asked.

The nun’s reply was somewhat surprising, and completely disappointing: “It was open all day. It was open all night last night. It was open until nine this evening, and no one was here,” she said in the tone of voice that’s so known to me know – it was the tone of a bureaucrat annoyed that you’ve come to require services of him. It was the tone of voice I encountered every time I went to the regional court offices while getting the official permission to marry a Pole. It was the tone of voice that I’ve heard in post offices, shops, buses – everywhere.

The young man would not be put off, though. “I know, I know. But not to open the church now?! At this moment?!”

The nun again: “The proboszcz said to ring the bells. He didn’t say anything about opening the church,” she said, locking the lower of three locks on the sacristy door.

“Let’s go,” said Johnny, starting to walk away.

“No, no! Don’t go!” said the young man. And he just repeated to the nun again, and again, “Not to open the church?! At this moment? At this moment?”

Reluctantly, she opened up the sacristy and we filed into the church quietly.

We knelt in the first row, with our three companions simply falling on their knees once they were in front of the tabernacle. All heads bowed, not a sound – I even prayed. “If you’re up there, God, I sure hope you’re welcoming such a great man into your presence now, because if a man like that isn’t with you now, no one else has a chance.”

The five of us had just come from a bar, so we reeked of cigarettes, and probably the smell of alcohol was noticeable, but none of us were even buzzed (we’d drunk perhaps two beers each), but Kinga felt very awkward about it the more she considered it. We left after only about ten minutes.

Kinga and I went back home and made some tea and listened to the radio.

They’ve been playing nothing but classical music on several of the stations. Last night they played Górecki’s “Amen,” interspersed with quotes from the pope.

A Country of Orphans

“Poor country,” Kinga said. We sat up late talking about John Paul’s life, and his philosophy, and his love of fellow humans.

“If Poles lived by his words, I’d never want to leave this place,” I said. “It would be a paradise.”

Poor Poland — wracked now with increasing corruption in every part of the government. A country with more than 18% unemployment, a country that must be the richest country in the world, as my father-in-law says, because everyone steals and there still remains something for others to pilfer.

And now, broken-hearted Poland. Kinga’s grandmother spent Sunday crying. Masses are pouring into churches and staying. It is a country of orphans.

Lech Wałęsa said that it was like losing a mother, “for the pope looked after Poland like a mother over her children.”

Papież

Since the pope first went into the hospital last month, his health has dominated the Polish press. He is Poland’s first son and a very unifying force here in Poland.

Over the weekend, vigils have been kept nonstop in most of the churches across the country. I just heard a radio report from Zakopane, the tourist town in the Tatra Mountains in the south of the country, and the reporter said that the town is empty – the ski lifts deserted, all the streets empty. Everyone’s in church or at home, hovering around the television and radio for the latest news, said the reporter.

The man is a giant. Poland today can be called free in large measure to the actions and support John Paul gave to the anti-communist underground in Poland. Despite Reagan’s minion’s claims, John Paul’s constant opposition to communism in the 1980s was not part of some dual-prong, economic spiritual/philosophical attack. It was born out of a passionate belief in the dignity of all people and a deep spiritual belief.

The man is a giant. Who else could have, lying on his deathbed, been the subject such a worldwide outpouring of sympathy and prayer? About whom else could we say, “All religions are praying for him at his time of death?”

That’s the irony of John Paul II. Even though he is profoundly Catholic, he somehow seems to represent some spiritual thing much larger. And not his only paradox: while he was an unceasing critic of communism, he equally hated Reagan/Bush style, unchecked capitalism.

Reigning now twenty-six years, beatifying more saints than any other pope, uniting people of all religions with a sense of hope that things can be better – it’s doubtful we’ll see anyone else like him in our lifetime.

Sympathy for the Devil

Can we forgive someone who hasn’t asked for forgiveness? There seems to be a lot of people who feel that we can’t assume any mercy for Ratzmann because of the enormity of his crime. Not only that, but some are implying that it would be wrong to suggest that mercy would be the right response. It would be the equivalent of sympathy for the devil.

Or would it?

Despite the havoc the 44-year-old Ratzmann wreaked on his congregation, [LCG member Thomas] Geiger said, church members heard a mostly upbeat message of forgiveness and hope.

“We hugged and cried over this, even Terry’s family,” said Geiger. “We’ve made our peace with them.”

Geiger, like some of the others in attendance, had family members killed or wounded in the rampage at the Brookfield Sheraton hotel.

Among them was Bart Oliver, Geiger’s nephew. After attending Ratzmann’s funeral and getting a quick bite for lunch, Geiger and his family moved on to the 15-year-old’s funeral, held at the Country Springs Hotel in Waukesha.

Glenn Diekmeier, who survived last weekend’s shootings and whose father, Harold, was killed, attended the Ratzmann funeral (“JS Online).

I’m strangely moved by the fact that victims’ families were in attendance at Ratzmann’s funeral. I doubt there were many, if any, families of Jeffrey Dahmer’s victims at his funeral. I doubt very much that there would be victims’ families at the funeral of Atlanta gunman Brian Nichols had he killed himself. Thinking about the nature of these three different crimes clarifies for me why it’s possible to speak of mercy in Ratzmann’s case.

This was not an extended killing spree, as in the Dahmer case. Nor was it the act of a desperate man trying to escape from the police. This was an otherwise “normal” individual that inexplicably went berserk. Recall that when a member addressed Ratzmann by name and asked him, “Why are you doing this?” Ratzmann stopped. Whatever clicked in the first place clicked again, and I would imagine that in that moment he possibly realized what he had done and realized the simplest way out would be to take his own life.

Was it premeditated? It seems so —- he did buy the gun in the summer. Was it planned, as a terrorist attack is planned? I doubt it. He came to church with his Bible, and then returned home to exchange it for a gun.

It all revolves around whether Terry Ratzmann was a victim in this too, and I believe he was. It now appears unlikely that this would have happened if he’d sought professional psychiatric help; if he hadn’t been a member of a legalistic sect that prescribed whom he could date and actively forbade people from dating whomever they chose; if he’d had a better relationship with his father; if his parents hadn’t divorced; if the WCG hadn’t split apart -— all these have been bantered about as causes, which lumped together with whatever other demons that haunted him, pushed an instable man to a point of vicious violence.

Behind the Scenes: The Wisconsin Shooting Tragedy

This is not the first time that someone associated with the ideology behind the Living Church of God committed such a vile act.

The Living Church of God (LCG) split from the Worldwide Church of God (WCG) in the mid-90’s over doctrinal differences. The founder of the WCG, Herbert Armstrong, died in 1986, and his successor, Joseph Tkach, began dismantling the doctrinal distinctives of the WCG. Those who wanted to remain faithful to Armstrong’s teachings left in droves in 1995, and one of the organizations formed was the Global Church of God (GCG), which eventually transmuted into the LCG, both led by Roderick Meredith.

Before Tkach made the drastic doctrinal changes, the WCG was a cult, pure and simple. Distinctive theological elements included

  • Rejection of the Trinity.
  • Observance of Jewish, Old Testament holy days.
  • Rejection of “worldly holidays,” including Christmas and Easter.
  • The teaching that the WCG alone was the true and undeceived church of God, and that all other Christians were merely “professing” Christians, deceived by (and ultimately worshiping) the devil.
  • The belief that the United States and England are peopled by the descendants of the original Ten Tribes of Israel.
  • The belief that Germany will rise again and defeat America in a nuclear World War Three.

The Living Church of God still holds to all these doctrines.

Precedent

Herbert Armstrong wrote his heretical theology up in many books and smaller booklets.

One of them was 1975 in Prophecy written in the 1950’s and predicting Jesus’ return in 1975.

The book had a violent effect on one Michael Dennis Rohan.

In an effort to hasten the building of the temple and resumption of Jewish cultic sacrifices in Jerusalem, Rohan set fire to the Al Aksa mosque in 1969. No one was killed, but there was significant material damage. The ripples of the attack continued through the years: fourteen years later, Hamas began a series of terrorist attacks scheduled to coincide with the Al Aksa attack.

Trying desperately to distance himself from the bad publicity the act generated, Herbert Armstrong responded by denying any connection between Rohan and his church:

Every effort, it seems, is being made to link us with it in a way to discredit the Work of God. The man, Rohan being held as the arsonist, the dispatches say, claims to be identified with us. This claim is TOTALLY FALSE. The first any of us at Pasadena ever heard of this man was when the press dispatches began coming over the Teletypes in our News Bureau. Checkups revealed that this man had sent in for and received a number of our Correspondence Course lessons. Last December he had sent in a subscription to The PLAIN TRUTH. But any claim to any further connection or association with us is an absolute lie.

Rohan claims he’d been in contact with a WCG minister, and that, combined with the fact that Rohan not only had subscription to the Plain Truth but also had received church literature, makes Rohan a “P.M.” – prospective member.

According to a Wikipedia article, Armstrong stopped claiming that a physical temple would have to be built

because at the time he was trying to establish a relationship with the government of Israel. He had previously developed a relationship with King Hussein of Jordan prior to the Six Day War and had actually signed a contract to go on the AM and shortwave [sic] Jordanian transmitters located in the West Bank with his daily radio program called The World Tomorrow. When Israel gained control of the West Bank it also voided Armstrong’s contract and as a result he then courted the favors of the government of Israel by becoming involved with such projects as the archeological digs in the area of the Temple Mount.

Practicalities won out over “God’s truth!”

Armstrong had a choice, it would seem, and in this case, continuing to preach “God’s truth!” as it had been “cried aloud” before would have been tantamount to Armstrong shooting himself in the theological/fiscal foot.

Unfortunately, Armstrong was not an idiot. He chose to tone it down.

Funny how “God’s truth” can be so self-defeating in some contexts.

Shake and Freeze

The oddest thing for an inhabitant of Poland to be writing: we had an earthquake yesterday at around 6:20 in the evening.

It was a slight little hiccup by most standards: 3.6 on the Richter scale. Kinga was at home and said she felt the building shaking for about five seconds. I, on the other hand, was walking home and felt nothing. Reportedly in the nearest town, some houses were shaken enough that books fell from the shelves, and on the other side of the Tatra Mountains, Slovakians reported having felt it.

No reports of damage, but of course everyone’s talking about it.

Earthquake and Poland — they go together about as well as . . .

Universally Empty Rhetoric

In what is shaping up to be an east-versus-west, worldwide conflict, it is not surprising that both sides have been spewing its share of rhetoricand propaganda. It is also not surprising how similar the propaganda has been. A point-by-point comparison of Bush’s post-attack speech and bin Laden’s post-attack statement (though, being filmed during the day, it was clearly made before the nighttime raids) reveals that both men are saying essentially the same thing. In what follows, I have simply cut and pasted comments from each individual’s speech, usually with no altercation. Where I have made changes, I have done so only for contextual clarity, with inclusions indicated with brackets and omissions with ellipses. In addition, I have not indicated the individual sources. For most examples it will be obvious, but for some, its eerily similar.

To begin with, both sides see themselves as the liberatorand defender of freedom while calling the enemy an oppressor:

  • The winds of change have come to eradicate oppression from the island of Muhammad, peace be upon him.
  • We defend not only our precious freedoms, but also the freedom of people everywhere to live and raise their children free from fear.

Each side accuses the other of killing innocents:

  • If any government sponsors the outlaws and killers of innocence, they have become outlaws and murderers themselves.
  • They supported the butcher over the victim, the oppressor over the innocent child.

Each side has given its demands unequivocally:

  • I gave Taliban leaders a series of clear and specific demands.
  • we [must] live [security] in Palestine, and . . . all the infidel armies [must] leave the land of Muhammad

In the case of non-compliance, each side has explained the consequences:

  • neither America nor the people who live in it will dream of security . . .
  • And they will take that lonely path at their own peril.
  • And now, the Taliban will pay a price.

“Terrorism” is the key term in describing each others’ actions:

  • This military action is a part of our campaign against terrorism
  • They have come out in force with their men . . . to suppress people in the name of terrorism.

Each man sees the situation as the definitive “us-them” battle, with no middle ground:

  • Every nation has a choice to make. In this conflict, there is no neutral ground.
  • These events have divided the whole world into two sides. The side of believers and the side of infidels, may God keep you away from them.

Each leader has made a call for support from his people, no matter what the price:

  • Every Muslim has to rush to make his religion victorious.
  • [We] patience in all the sacrifices that may come.

(Recall that the Taliban leader recently pledge to sacrifice 2 million lives to defend Afghani freedom.)

And, as is the case in every war, each side has made an appeal to God and believes that God is on its side:

  • God is great, may pride be with Islam. May peace and God’s mercy be upon you.
  • May God continue to bless America.

With two equally stubborn, stupid individuals at the forefront of this conflict, there can be little doubt that a horrific conclusion lies somewhere in the future.

On September Eleventh

The attacks on New York and Washington have called into question many things that until now had been taken for granted, such as the safety of life in the United States and the level of hatred some feel towards America. Now that some time has passed, even more urgent questioning is taking place.

The initial shock seems to have worn off and everyone is left asking who did it, why, and what should be the proper response, without the roar of emotions everyone felt in the initial days after the attacks. Immediately after the attack, the initial answers to those questions were more the consequences of emotion, anger, and pain than the result careful thought. Hopefully, most people now realize that it is indeed time for careful thought and not emotive reactions. To that end, I offer my own answers to those three questions that seem to be plaguing everyone.

The first question everyone thought was probably something along the lines of “Who would do such a thing?!” In the days immediately following the attacks, the then-unknown perpetrators were completely vilified. The general consensus seemed to be that they were not human beings in any real sense of the word. They were monsters. Bush continually called them “evil” and the rest of the administration referred to the in similar terms. Those who did not go so far as to say they were the epitome of evil at the very least thought they were very sick individuals, people in dire need of mental help. Sick and demented, in other words.

Yet they were human beings. Indeed, they were “normal people” in many ways. They all undoubtedly had hopes, worries, and fears; they all probably loved their mothers with great devotion; they laughed occasionally (as evidenced by the suicide note found in one attacker’s luggage); they felt weak and frail (again, as shown in the suicide letter). They were like me in many ways, I’m sure.

How they differed, though, is in the grounding of their worldview. The ultimate reality for them was Allah. Reading the things left behind by the attackers, one cannot possibly deny that for them, Allah’s will was everything. They were devout and strict – so much so that they were willing to give their lives to fulfill what they felt was Allah’s will. I of course cannot answer whether or not it was Allah’s will, nor can anyone else. I can say that I certainly hope that the most powerful being in the world wouldn’t require or even condone such actions, but that is a question beyond my finite abilities to answer. The point, though, is that they felt it was Allah’s will; they felt they were doing their religious duty; they thought they were pleasing God. It seems that most followers of the three monotheistic religions should give at least a grudging respect to these men’s devotion. The outcome was tragic, but single-mindedness with which they pursued their goal is strangely admirable. If we were to try to eradicate world hunger with the kind of devotion they had, everyone would be well fed by week’s end. [1]

Even before most people began asking, “Who would do such a thing?” the Bush administration had already decided Osama bin Laden was responsible. At first his name was mentioned couched in words that seemed to soften the fact that he was immediately assumed guilty. Bush and others didn’t want to be seen as acting in violation of that most-American judicial assumption of innocence before being proved guilty. Soon, however, the niceties were dropped and it was generally assumed that bin Laden was responsible. All eyes then shifted to Afghanistan where the Taliban was hosting him and his organization, and this led to the crisis that seems only to be increasing.

It is here that the Bush administration seems to be failing most miserably. Bush has demanded, “Hand over bin Laden.” The Taliban, in response, has made a very reasonable demand: provide evidence that bin Laden is responsible. Yet the Bush administration seems completely unwilling to do such a thing. “No!” it seems to cry, “Our demands are not negotiable! Hand him over or be destroyed!”

It’s more than a little disturbing that Bush in fact was demanding bin Laden’s extradition before the BBC was reporting that the FBI had announced that it finally had proof of the attackers’ ties to bin Laden’s organization. Guilt was assumed from the beginning, and that assumption (however logical it might be) has informed all of Bush’s actions.

Yet is the United States asking for something it would be willing to do? What if another country were to demand the extradition of some American on charges of terrorism, but refused to provide any evidence? It is doubtful that the US would be willing to hand over the accused. Yet that is exactly what it is demanding of the Taliban. What if, further, this country seeking to try an American gave the American leadership an ultimatum: hand over the accused or face attack? How would America respond? Probably in a manner similar to the Taliban: “Any attack will be seen as an act of war and we will respond accordingly.”

One might respond to this line of reasoning that the two situations are completely dissimilar. “Bin Laden has been accused of a most heinous crime, of killing thousands of innocent people, of committing an unbelievable injustice – in short, of being a terrorist. America would never protect anyone accused of doing such a thing!” So some might argue, but the argument brings to the table one of the most critical points of this whole crisis, and that is the definition of terrorism itself. America seeks to try bin Laden on charges of terrorism, as America and the rest of the Western world defines “terrorism.” But is it not inconceivable that certain acts America has committed or financed could be defined as terrorism?

What about its support of oppressive regimes such as Pinochet in Chile and Marcos in the Philippines? What about the enforcement of embargoes against countries that result in millions of people being pushed to the brink of starvation while leaving the people the U.S. is trying to punish completely untouched? What about its unquestioning support of Israel (which has included providing weapons, training, and information) in the Middle East conflict? What about the simple fact that America is the only nation in the world to use a nuclear device in a non-testing situation? What about its carpet bombing in Dresden and Cambodia knowingly resulted in the deaths of thousands of civilians? What about the help America provided oppressive regimes to overwhelm democratically elected governments simply because the former espoused capitalism and the latter communism (I’m thinking here of Central and South America)?

These are just the potential “sins of commission.” One could also argue that America has committed several sins of omission. This is particularly true when one thinks about American intervention in Kuwait in the early 1990’s. George Bush (and others after him) explained the action as one of humanitarianism – saving the Kuwaitis from the horrors the Iraqis were committing. While this may very well be true, it doesn’t hold well when one considers all the other atrocities that America has set back and allowed to happen: in Rwanda, Cambodia, and Bosnia, for example, there was attempted genocide. For several years now the Taliban has been committing the most atrocious human rights violations. During the Second World War, America knew of the Nazi’s genocidal actions and did nothing about it (i.e., destroying the death camps). America sat back and watched while Pol Pot and Idi Amin destroyed their own countries, killing thousands. The point is this: if the American intervention in Kuwait was a truly humanitarian effort, then America should have also stepped in and tried to stop all these other horrors. But Kuwait has something that Cambodia, Europe, and central Africa don’t have: oil.

So whether by omission or commission, America has done plenty of things that others could easily regard as unjust, or even “terrorist.” American relations with Iraq and Iran provide a good example of something that someone might label as “terrorist.” For a while it suited America’s interests to support Saddam in his war with Iran, and all the while he massacred Kurds in his own country. His regime did to the Kurds what they later did to the Kuwaitis. Why didn’t America do something about Saddam then? Because he was useful. He severed as a distraction for Iran. When Iran was busy fighting Iraq, it couldn’t devote as many resources to sponsoring terrorism against the West. Problem solved. And in the meantime, thousands and thousands of innocent people were killed in a senseless war America helped sponsor. Now America has switched positions – Iran seems to be a little more moderate, so we can now play them against Iraq. One can say, “Well that’s because Iran is now a more humanitarian, less repressive regime, and we’re rewarding their changes with a new openness toward them.” That might be so, but that’s not the point – the point is that throughout all this, Iraq has been an oppressive, murderous regime, and America only did something about it when the threat spread beyond its borders. America created Saddam Hussein, and when he was no longer convenient, America destroyed him.

The reason I’ve been putting the words “terrorist” and terrorism” in quotes is because it is, after all, a relative term. One man’s terrorism is another’s patriotism. This leads to the second question people have been asking – “Why?” Though no direct information is available, it seems reasonable to assume that these individuals who attacked New York and Washington did so because something America did provoked them. This is not to say that America got what it deserved, and that this justifies or excuses the attacks. I’m simply saying that people do not commit acts of this horrific magnitude without extreme provocation (at least provocation in their eyes). In attacking the Pentagon and World Trade Center, these men felt they were righting a wrong, that their act was an attempt to bring about justice. In other words, these men acted in response to a perceived injustice, something they might also have labeled “terrorism.” Whether or not America meant to, it has done something that has angered many people in the world enough that they are willing to sacrifice everything to enact some kind of “justice.”[2]

This is where things start getting really interesting, though; where our common humanity comes into sharpest focus. The same kind of rage that Americansfelt immediately after the bombing (and many still feel, certainly) must surely be similar to what drove these men to do this. No one in the American mainstream media (from the limited bit I get) seems to be admitting let alone discussing this. Some senator said, “We’ve got to be somewhat irrational in our response. Blow their capital from under them.” Yet however “just” that might seem to Americans, Afghanis would feel the same pain and resentment toward America that some Americans now feel toward them. As Salon magazine put it, “You might as well hand out box-cutters and directions to Kennedy Airport to every kid in Afghanistan unto the third generation.”

Our common humanity is evidenced in other ways as well:

  1. Both people feel that a great injustice has been done to them. This drove certain individuals to commit one of the most horrific acts in history. Who knows what that itself will cause America to do in retaliation. But it will retaliate, and that leads to the second point:
  2. Both groups feel that their retaliatory action will rectify the situation. The men who killed all those people in the States didn’t do it because they thought they were being evil; they did it because they thought they were acting justly. We can of course question their sense of justice, but the fact remains: they most likely felt that this act would tilt the scales of justice in their favor. America feels that its retaliation will accomplish the same thing.
  3. The injustice they feel has inspired many of them to volunteer their services in operations that might result in their own death in order to get justice. European news agencies showed footage of bin Laden’s minions training, and no reasonable person would deny that these men are willing to give their life for their beliefs. At the same time, the American public seems okay with the idea of casualties in its search for justice. Additionally, there have been reports of common soldiers expressing an eager willingness to take part in missions that might result in casualties.
  4. Both groups see themselves as virtuous and the other as the epitome of evil. Of course the US has been branded the Great Satan by the Islamic world for ages. Now Bush is continually referring to those people who planned and committed this act, as well as those who harbor them (read: the Taliban) as “evil.”
  5. There is a certain fanaticism among both people. When Bush visited the disaster area in New York soon after the attack, he was talking to all the rescue workers through a megaphone. At one point they spontaneously began chanting, “U.S.A.!!! U.S.A.!!! U.S.A.!!!” pumping their fists, with a look of just indignation on their faces. Change the language to Arabic and put a beard on Bush and it would look eerily similar to what we see in the Middle East from time to time.
  6. Both groups see the loss of a certain number of innocent lives as an acceptable price to pay to reach their objectives. Senator Zell Miller said the U.S. should “bomb the hell out of Afghanistan.” This would probably result in significant civilian losses, but this is apparently not a concern for Miller. Loss of civilian life is not an issue, obviously, for those who carried out the attacks. And of course both groups would define “innocent” differently, and I highly doubt that Miller would call the Afghani citizens who died as “innocent,” because, after all, they support bin Laden. Those who killed the people in the States would probably not call their victims innocent, because, after all, they support Israel’s anti-Arab war and so on.
  7. Neither group will ever say, “We deserve that act of retaliation because our own last attack was so awful. The scales of justice are now even and we, as an evil state, have been justly punished.” In other words, a military attack will just bring about another terrorist attack.

This brings us to the final question: what should America do? The temptation at first was for me to frame that question as “what should America do in retaliation,” but that begs the very question I’m raising: should America retaliate? It is at times like this that at least a tinge of nationalism touches most people and even the most liberal critic in America probably, for at least a moment, would have answered unhesitatingly affirmatively. But one thing is certain: unless America can somehow convince the world that bin Laden is responsible for the attack and it is an unjust act that deserves punishment, whatever America does will only provoke another attack.

One thing America should certainly do but seems unwilling to do is provide evidence to the world at large that indicts bin Laden in this attack. Yet the objective itself of Operation Infinite Justice (as the Bush administration is calling it) — capture and try bin Laden in a court of law – ensures that America will not provide such evidence (and this in turn will create more motivation for terrorism). [3] In the effort to capture bin Laden, America will commit acts a, b, and c. These three acts will be justified, no matter what they are, simply by saying that they were done in the pursuit of justice. Even if act b is the accidental killing of 500 civilians, it will still be “covered” by the “pursuit of justice” clause. One act (of omission, certainly) may well be the starvation of thousands of civilians. Another might be the re-creation of a power vacuum like the one that, upon Soviet retreat, led to years of civil war. This would be the same as destroying the country, and Bush has already told us what the results of that would be — leave it alone, because we’re “not into country-building.”

Now my main point is this: these three acts are defined as ultimately just because they lead to the capture of bin Laden. But what if someone decides these very three acts are “acts of “terrorism?” What if only 5,000 Afghanis die of starvation because of this war (a number that seems ridiculously low in early October) and the leadership of Afghanistan wants to try George Bush on charges of terrorism? What will America do? Laugh, basically.

What if any country demanded an American citizen for trial but provided no evidence? America too would be unwilling to give up the accused person.

This is the main reason why Bush is unwilling to capitulate to the Taliban’s very reasonable demand: give us evidence. To this point, as far as I can tell from the news, the United States has refused. It has said, “Our demand is non-negotiable.” What if any country demanded an American citizen for trial but provided no evidence? America too would be unwilling to give up the accused person.

And this leads to exactly why the U.S. will never provide the evidence. If it does so, and the later some country does the same to the US, it will be obliged to turn over the accused. In other words, it has to play fair. It has to realize that it’s not always right, that its citizens and even government do things that other find reprehensible. And of course America has committed acts that others define as terrorism, but I highly doubt it will be willing to turn over anyone for trial in another country as it’s asking the Taliban to do. Especially without evidence.

It’s precisely this selfish, biased behavior that leads others to hate America. America, like any other country, has always acted in its best interests. Even the greatest acts of generosity America has committed have been inspired out of national interest. The rebuilding of Europe after World War Two, for example, was not an act of charity. It was a way to make sure that another regime with visions of global (or at least European) domination didn’t arise from the rubble just as the Nazis had arisen from the ashes of World War One. No one individual or nation does a single thing from purely selfless motives. Even the greatest martyr gets some sort of personal satisfaction out of her death.

It seems clear, then, that the answer is not simply retaliation. You don’t calm an angry dog by kicking the shit out of it every time it bears its teeth. If America (and the Western world as a whole) truly wants to stop these types of things from happening, it has to take into account what causes the conditions that make people feel this way.

The answer to the question “what to do” lies in the very facet of human nature that led these men to attack Washington and New York and may well lead America to attack Afghanistan, and that is human’s tendency toward dualistic worldviews. And with dualism, it’s really a matter of perspective. Some see all of America’s actions as just; others see all their nation’s actions as just. There are few people in the world who say, “We as a people and a nation are bad — inherently evil, in fact — and we just want to wreck havoc on the world.” Everyone sees themselves as the good-guy. But everyone can’t be the good-guy all the time. There have to be bad-guys, and I think most Americans are unwilling to admit that their country has ever been a bad-guy. Much like Islamic extremists are unwilling to admit that their country has ever been a bad-guy. “We’re backed by God’s justice.” “We’re backed by Allah’s justice.” Both statements can’t be right.

This dualistic view that so many people seem to have — on both sides of any given political coin — will do nothing but encourage and fuel such actions as we saw on 11 September. Americans have to be willing to look at themselves and say, “What could we have done that could have possibly resulted in someone feeling such fury towards us?” In other words, they have to walk a mile in others’ cliché moccasins. Are those on the other side going to do the same? I don’t know. Maybe they would continue to be close-minded, but their close-mindedness would never justify our own.

If America provides an equal response, that’s exactly what it will get — more of the same. People who share the same views and opinions as those who committed the attacks will see America’s action as something that needs to be avenged, and will strike again. America will hit them again and say, “Justice has been done.” They’ll feel injustice has been done, and hit America back. Sort of like how practical jokes seem to spiral out of control. In this case, though, the consequences (for both sides) are a little more dire than short-sheeted beds.

The Day

There are some days when I have to write. There are some days that are so significant that not to write would be almost a crime. And it is seldom that one has the horror to experience such a day.

“December 7, 1941 — a day that will live in infamy.”

“September 11, 2001 — a day that will live in infamy.”

Today I experienced what might very well be my generation’s Pearl Harbor. The World Trade Center no longer exists. Or as a commentator on TV said, “Po prosto, nie istnaje.” Hundreds, possibly thousands of people died. For what? I really have no idea.

I can’t explain what just happened. I was writing this, listening to Górecki’s Third Symphony and I just started sobbing. My whole body was shaking, and as I was crying I was thinking, “Am I crying or am I laughing hysterically?” I didn’t know if I was crying because of the tragic pain, or laughing because of the indescribable absurdity of the situation. I got up to close the door, and I just collapsed. I balled up in a fetal position at the door and I just wept. I really have not felt such pain or such confusion in my entire life. And I didn’t even know a single person affected by this. I don’t know anyone who died, nor do I know anyone who lost someone in this stupid day. But I just sat there, curled up, weeping, and I think I must have said ten times, “I don’t understand. I don’t get it, at all.”

I feel so heavy. I feel like every part of my body is made out of lead. I feel like someone knocked me down, and then just kept kicking me. I feel like there’s no fucking reason to live. I keep thinking, “Who wants to live in a world as ugly as this? Who wants to have anything to do with this disgusting, foul world? And what kind of a god could look down on this world and not do something — at the very least destroy it and put us all out of our misery.”

I cannot but conclude that the bulk of your natives to be the most pernicious race of little odious vermin that nature ever suffered to crawl upon the surface of the earth.

Jonathan Swift, Gulliver’s Travels

What kind of god would ever look at the shit we dole out to each other and let it all go unchecked?

Mamo, nie płacz, nie.

How can I not cry? How can we all not cry? How can those fucking Palestinians dance and laugh in the street? I swear, I saw them on the television and I really would have felt no regret (at that moment, anyway) to see someone walk out of some building with a gun and just cut them all down. Line them up and put a bullet in each of their heads, one by one. And make the parents watch as you do it to the children.

And so I am no better than those who planned and executed today’s attack.

I’ve never been so ashamed of being a human in my whole life. I’ve never been so ashamed. I’ve never felt so petty and insignificant.

And who knows if it’s over? Maybe in a few months or weeks, or even days, there’ll be some other attack.

We live on the edge, each and every one of us. We live not knowing what the very next second will bring. We live in such a fucking false sense of security. “Oh, it won’t happen to me,” said every single person in the World Trade Center just before the planes hit and destroyed their lives. We walk on a great frozen lake, and with each step we’ve no fucking clue whether or not we’ll splash through to our deaths or not. Not only that, but most of us don’t even think about it. It’s as likely to happen as an extra terrestrial walking up to us and introducing itself.

We live with blinders on. We live looking only at the single, short, insignificant, almost nonexistent moment in which we exist. Maybe Leibniz was dead on with his theory of monads. We all live in our own little universe, and we generally don’t feel anything except that which affects us personally.

Enough. I have to go to bed. I’m exhausted.

Settling In

We’ve done two school visits this week and it has me really wanting to teach. It’s in my blood – a sort of addiction, I guess. I’m eager to get to my site. However, I don’t feel comfortable enough with Polish yet to be cast into Polish society without American contacts. Of course, we’ll have tutors which will help a great deal. (I heard today than in the near future we’ll be getting Polish grammar books – are they teasing us? I hope not.)

It’s amazing how one day can be so awful – like yesterday – then all of a sudden, out of the blue, one has the best day in recent memory. This evening has been just amazing . . .

First of all, dinner was incredible. We had a completely ryby based meal. The main course was a rice-fish-pickle dish that was outstanding. Also we had fish patee and a bit of fried fish. It was incredibly good! Not only that, but I had a limited conversation with Teresa in Polish. It was so exciting to hear the dish described in Polish and understand what was in it.,

After dinner Piotr and I cleaned up and had a grand time. We carried on wonderfully. Afterwards we went into the living room and talk turned to the motivations of US foreign policy. It was an intriguing conversation . . .

It’s so interesting to hear a central-European on US policy. Piotr is of the opinion that everything the US government does is motivated by political and (more often) fiscal interests. Even the Peace Corps is a political move. Of course he is right – the US government does nothing for philanthropic (sp?) reasons. Still, it’s almost difficult to hear from a non-American. I wanted to agree with him and yet I also tried to defend the US (if that is possible). Still, how does one explain why his government pays farmers not to produce a certain amount of wheat (so that the international price will remain high) when there are billions of children around the world who are starving to death? It’s impossible – one merely has to admit that his government is wrong . . . in a major way.

One last comment: learning Polish is becoming vastly more rewarding. It is incredible to realize that I am using a language more and more that only a matter of weeks ago I knew next to nothing about. It is so vastly (and wonderfully) different from learning a language in a classroom in the States. Here I don’t pretend to buy a beer for practice; I do it in reality. I don’t practice buying a bus ticket; I actually do it. I’m not just learning to speak Polish; I’m learning to live it. And it’s vastly different.

Another storm is rolling in – the third in as many weeks. The weather here is so very strange.

Today we got our medical kits, including X condoms. It’s amazing how it has been assumed from day one that we will be having sex while in the Peace Corps. Americans (people in general?) seem now to view sex as a right.

Church and State

Yesterday they had the presidential elections in Russia. In Poland that is easily and obviously an issue of great concern. Many Poles feel that the only reason Russia doesn’t control Poland now is a matter of strength. This uneasy fear is echoed in my host brother’s casual comments about Russia when he refers to it as “Big Brother.” Many feel that a win by Zyuganov will mean an inevitable contention with Russia. The international edition [of Newsweek] expressed it most succinctly: “Red Alert” the cover reads, and many (if not all, even the youngest) Poles are turning their attention once again eastward with anxious eyes.

One interesting thing about Poland ten years ago was the role of the church. It played a part much like the church in Latin America. I’m not sure I would say that there was (or is) a sort of liberation theology – I don’t know the nature of the sermons at that point (or this point). Yet, without regarding the message in the church, the connection is obvious when one considers the political nature of the social forum provided by the Polish church of the 80’s. People talked at church about social ills and how they might be corrected. They discussed various methods of dealing with a corrupt and oppressive government. They did not go there to socialize or to see and be seen – they went there to plan action, and to monitor previous courses of action. I would like to find out what kind of sermons were being preached; what role did the church officially take?

It seems that in America only the church has taken on such a passive role. Yet with all the pro-life demonstrations and [the] various religious political action committees, that trend is in the process of changing. All the same Americans have generally not had any oppression to react against. The obvious exception is where the church in America has been most active: MLK was after all a preacher first and a political activist second – at least initially.

Today we observed an English [class] in a Polish liceum; tomorrow or Wednesday we might have to teach. This is particularly difficult to prepare for. We know nothing about the [students] we are suppose to teach (including [their] level). It is next to impossible to prepare for this lesson, if not completely impossible.

Waco Disaster

After fifty-one days the stand-off with Branch Davidians’ leader David Koresh in Waco is finally over. FBI agents began an assault this morning with tanks, battering down the walls of buildings in the compound, then delivering “non-pyrotechnic” tear gas into the compound. Although the cult members had gas masks authorities said the masks would only remain effective for approximately eight hours. Eight cult members escaped the blaze which grew to an inferno with the aid of thirty-mile-an-hour winds. Cult members shot at firemen as they tried to put out the fire, so all that could be done was to sit and watch the buildings go up in flames. Anywhere from 17 to 25 children were in the compound and I believe two of them were among the eight that escaped death.

Senator Arlen Specter (R-Penn) has already called for an investigation into the whole affair. It will be interesting to see what becomes of it. There’s been stories that of the four federal agents killed in the raid, three were killed by friendly fire. If all were killed by friendly fire then this could become an enormous scandal.

There’s no doubt that this will be compared to the Jim Jones People’s Temple mass suicide of the seventies. It will be fascinating to read books concerning this, books that compare this to the Jonestown massacre.

I’ve been working on an idea for a story about Abraham. I’ll put my notes in here now.

Abraham couldn’t believe what he was hearing. The creator of the cosmos, the sustainer of life, the only omnipotent and all knowing being in the universe had just told Abraham to kill his own son. God was supposed to be all good and all loving. Above all, God did his own killing. When towns needed wiping out, God did it himself; an earthquake, fire from heaven or a flood; whatever it took, but God did take care of it himself. He was his own hit man, and he did his own dirty work. And he certainly never asked someone to compromise their morals.

Yet here was God telling Abraham to kill his own son. The very concept seemed so far fetched.

Abraham had always been a loyal follower of his God and did whatever he thought was God’s will. Now he wasn’t so sure. God had just told him to kill his only son, his pride and joy for which he had waited a full lifetime. God had promised that child to him, and now he was asking Abraham to sacrifice his son Isaac. Abraham had never killed anyone in his life. And now his God was expecting him to kill his own son.

God always did his own killing, though, and that’s what bothered Abraham. It certainly wasn’t something God was comfortable with, or enjoyed doing. At least Abraham hoped so. He was having some doubts about that, though. After all, here God was, asking a man to kill another human. Not just another human, his own son. Did God get some sort of sadistic pleasure out of blind faith such as he was asking? Had God given Isaac to Abraham just to provide an innocent victim to test Abraham? Certainly that’s what God was doing, testing Abraham. But that seemed so unlike God. God was omnipotent. God knew the strength of Abraham’s faith. He also knew the strength of Abraham’s morals. God didn’t need to test Abraham. Sadism seemed the only logical conclusion, then.

Abraham was caught in a dilemma. Which did he compromise? God’s direct command or his own morals. Here begins Abraham’s consideration. Does one have a responsibility to God so great that it over-rides all moral considerations? Are morals more important than a command by God? And what would God have done if Abraham had refused to sacrifice Isaac? Would he have found someone else? Would he have honored Abraham’s decision, maybe even finding favor in Abraham’s moral strength? Was it an open ended test, so that no matter what Abraham chose it would have been right in some way? Or was God looking for an unquestioning follower who had such faith in him that he would even adjust his ethics to obey God? Which is more important: ethics or faith? And would God have even asked Abraham to do such a thing? Would God test someone like that? And then this leads to a questioning of the story of Lot.

I’ll have to do some thinking about this, but I think this has definite possibilities if I handle it well. I can just see this turning eventually into a best-selling novel that is just received incredibly well…the Nobel Prize…the Pulitzer… :)