Month: January 2024

Overheard

“We’re just trying to teach the responsibility,” she said, explaining the reasoning her son’s teacher gave for assigning some work that the mother felt was unnecessary.

The words had hardly left her mouth when her interlocutor jumped in with how he would have responded and perhaps in doing so, suggesting how she likely replied or wanted to respond: “That’s my job.”

So many ideas packed into that handful of words.

The overarching notion is that there are some things that a teacher teaches, but there are some things that only a parent teaches. This notion of non-overlapping domains is popular with those who lean right, and it is fast becoming a key right-wing talking point. Whether it’s issues of race or questions of gender, the right is quick to point out that there are things that parents teach and it’s hands-off for everyone else.

I’m certainly not suggesting that there aren’t things that are predominantly in the domain of parents. Religion, for example, is something that as far as proselytizing is strictly off-limits for teachers, and rightly so. The problem with religion and issues about science is that the right is constantly redefining what is acceptable. It’s no longer acceptable, some feel, merely to teach students the beliefs and rituals of other religions for them to be educated about the beliefs and motivations of others. This is growing to include ideas like scientific literacy. Young Earth creationist parents resist the teaching of evolution in schools as an infringement on their religion as much as they do about teaching students the basics of Buddhist belief. If it contradicts or threatens Christian faith, they want it out.

Perhaps none of this applies to the individuals I overheard. Perhaps it all is. (Living in the South and overhearing this at a Scouting function, I would suspect it’s likely that at least some of it is.) What I found most interesting was the realization I had on hearing this that many parents in America have no idea at all what’s going on in schools. Teaching responsibility might very well be something the parent I heard does regularly and well, but schools are filled with students who are not taught these basic things at home. Teachers have to pick up the slack that negligent parents, overwhelmed parents, single parents, and any other parents leave.

Changes

Some time ago, I was looking for something in the Wayback Machine, and it struck me that I might grab a few shots of what this site has looked like.

As many changes and as radically different (yet the same) as the subjects of the blog itself…

First, there was the original look:

November 2004

It was running on Text Pattern, which was basic. And my design was basic. Because my skills were basic. But there was that classic header:

I still kind of like it…

Some years were unavailable in the Wayback Machine, so suddenly, we jump seven years to 2010:

May 2010

By then, I’d switched to WordPress, which gave me a lot more options as far as design goes.

February 2011

And with that freedom, I began to change the design regularly.

October 2011

With this being day 1500 of my daily posting streak, I thought it might be good to reflect on the site itself.

January 2013

I tried everything: magazine layouts,

March 2014

minimalist layouts,

December 2014

seasonal layouts, everything.

March 2018

Then I started using the Divi theme, and for about 6 years now, I’ve stuck with it.

May 2019

I’ve changed the header image,

June 2021

and I messed a bit with other design elements, but since about June of 2021, I’ve found something that I like and just hang with — except for the yearly change of the header image…

Today’s Only Picture

One of the things we accomplished this weekend was getting a new computer for the Boy. The Girl needs one, too, but we still don’t know the specs she’ll need for what programs she might be running in college. So today I got the computer set up and snapped a picture to text to E. He was at his friend’s house having some needed buddy time. However, he’d left his phone at home. So it was for naught. But I got a picture for the day out of it…

Win

The Boy’s team finally got their first win of the season today, and the Boy scored.

Literal

We’re reading the balcony scene and looking closely at Romeo’s famous monolog (almost a soliloquy) when we get to the second half where he begins comparing Juliet’s eyes to stars:

Two of the fairest stars in all the heaven,
Having some business, do entreat her eyes
To twinkle in their spheres till they return.
What if her eyes were there, they in her head?

“What would happen if that exchange happens? If Juliet’s eyes were replaced by stars and vice versa?”

“Um, she would burn up from the heat of the stars, Mr. Scott,” says Mr. Literalist in the front row.

Sentence Frames

It’s a tough prompt: the analysis required might be too much for my students even at the end of the year; at this point in the year, it’s an impossibility. But I can apply various supports that will help them ease into the whole argument unit.

“What evidence does the author use to support the claim that MLK was the right man born at the right time?”

We’re not evaluating the argument: we’re not even looking to determine the claim. The claim is settled: MLK was the right man born at the right time.

I look over the passage and realize that the key idea is that he was born at the right time. It’s a question of context. He rose to prominence after Excecutive Order 9981 desegregated the military and Brown v. Board did the same (in theory) for schools. The author also points out that the rise of television helped King and the civil rights movement as it made it impossible to ignore the brutality directed at the African American community.

I help the students see all this, creating a graphic organizer to put this information into manageable form.

At the end of the lesson, I wrap up how our planning would form an answer:

The author supports the claim that King was the right man at the right time by showing the context of his leadership. For example, the author gives the context of laws and court cases. He explains Executive Order 9981, which banned segregation in the military. He also explains how Brown v Board ended school segregation. In addition, the author gives the context of technology. He points out that television made it impossible to hide how African Americans suffered.

As I say this, I point to each part of the organizer to show where the ideas are coming from.

The next day, I plan for an easy task. We’re simply going to take our graphic organizer and turn it into sentences. “I gave them all the answers yesterday,” I think to myself. “How much of a challenge can this be for them?”

We begin reviewing our work, and I add some more schaffolding: I number the sentences they need to write and add some transitional elements to help them connect things:

Each line, each numbered element becomes a sentence. I remove the parenthetical annotations to make it even easier. So I’m hoping students will see “Gives context of laws and cases” and realize the only thing missing is the subject. I don’t even expect or even hope that they will think in those terms. All they have to do is read it and think about it:

“‘Gives context of laws and cases.’ Who gives the context of laws and cases?” That’s the first step, but some of them struggle even realizing this.

One young man comes to me for help.

“I don’t know what to do with number two,” he admits.

“Well,” I begin, “read the text for number two.”

“Gives context of laws and cases.”

“What’s missing? What question do you have when you say that?”

He looks at me, a completely blank expression suggesting that there’s so much he doesn’t understand about it that he doesn’t even know where to begin. I decide to simplify.

“Imagine I walk up to you and say, ‘Gives her an apple.’ What question comes to mind when I say that.”

How hard can it be for this kid to see that we have an action here and we have no idea who’s doing it? How difficult can it be to realize that the simplest question in response to this “Who”?

I finally help him to see that we don’t know what’s going on there and that the questions, “Who gives her the apple?” And I think we’re ready to return to my original question.

“So, when I say ‘Gives her an apple,’ the obvious question is ‘Who gives her an apple.’ So if I say ‘Gives the context of laws and cases,’ what’s the obvious question?” I don’t even bother looking up at him because he should catch this almost immediately. It’s the same problem. He just stares at me.

Even after I get through to him that we’re trying to figure out who provided the context, he can’t take the next step. I’ve had this problem with other students, and they get confused about what we’re really writing about. They ask, “Martin Luther King?” sheepishly.

This is a deceptively complex question we’re working on: we’re not asking a question about the contents of the text itself — what it’s about — but the decisions the author made in creating the text. It’s not an analysis of the contents of the text but of the structure of the text, of the process and thinking behind the writing of the text.

But this level of questioning is not even our ultimate goal. We’re ultimately supposed to get students ready to answer questions about evaluating the claim and evidence of an argument. Here, I’m giving the claim and the paragraph in which to find the evidence. I’m just asking them to figure what the evidence is. I’m not asking them to find the claim. I’m not asking them to find the evidence among all the paragraphs. And I’m certainly not asking them to make decisions about the quality of the evidence provided. And as far as potential counterclaims — forget it. I just want them to find the evidence.

While I’m working with this boy, a handful of students realize the relatively straightforward nature of what I’m asking them to do and how it’s all on the board and write beautiful (although simple and short) paragraphs about it.

These kids are in the same class along with a boy who speaks very little English and a boy who speaks no English at all, and the state expects me to get them all to the same place in nine months: analyze the argument in an eighth-grade level text and evaluate its effectiveness.

And they are struggling to do it when I’ve already done it with them. Using a fifth-grade level text.

Blasphemy in Warsaw

There’s a new cafe in Warsaw called “Madonna.” It uses images of Mary and Jesus as decorations, and it’s driving the fundamentalist Catholics crazy. Just look at the list of blasphemies they’re committing:

  • The figure of Our Lady invites you for drinks among vulgar neon signs.
  • Rosaries hang on vodka bottles.
  • Blasphemous images depict Our Lady smoking cigarettes.
  • The face of actor Keanu Reeves was placed in the image of the Sacred Heart of the Lord.
  • The face of singer Rihanna was substituted for Mary’s face.
  • There are statues of Mary on the tables with a QR code for the customer to download the menu.
  • There is a confessional in the restaurant where you can take photos.

The horrors!

Just look at the pictures:

It’s unbelievable.

The price of democracy can be steep for fundamentalists.

Spirit Week

It’s Spirit Week at the Girl’s high school, and today’s theme was rhyme without reason. She explained it to me when I asked why she was wearing a yellow vest. She was pairing with a friend for the rhyme part: L’s portion was construction worker. I can’t remember what her friend’s outfit was the rhymed. At any rate, I off-handedly mentioned that K probably still had her hard helmet from her previous job.

The Girl’s eyes light up.

“Really?!?” And off she sprinted to our bedroom. “Mama, do you still have your hard helmet.”

She was thrilled to find that she indeed still has her hard helmet.

It was wonderful to start the day with such a smile.

Returning Slowly

Things are returning to normal. The Girl’s GI issues seem to be slowly diminishing, and the Boy seems in better spirits.

Babcia is, as always, Babcia: always (almost) happy and smiling (until she gets to talking about Polish politics — don’t get her talking about politics).

After a good breakfast, L and I headed to Rock Hill for the second day of the weekend’s tournament. The Girl helped out with warmups and was the biggest cheerleader on the bench.

Their team made it to the final in the gold bracket — meaning in essence, the final for the whole tournament for their age bracket — and it was against another team from the same volleyball club. Since it, too, has a strong religious foundation (like last year’s team, but this club seems to be less interested in meddling in the private lives of the coaches like last year’s team, which fired the Girl’s team’s coaches — in the middle of the season — because they were living together out of wedlock — the shame!), the two teams circled up and prayed before the game.

This team has beaten the Girl’s team badly once this year, but they were confident. Still, they’re kind of a family, I think: instead of simply giving each other low fives under the net, they popped onto the same side as our girls and there were hugs all around.

Our girls jumped out to an early lead in the first set and won it 25-21. The second set was a different story. They trailed by two for most of the set, but suddenly, it was 13-17. Then 13-18. And then 13-19. In the end, the lost 16-25.

The third and deciding set (which is only to 15) they were neck and neck until it was 8-8. Then three quick mistakes and they were down 8-11. Then 8-12. I was pretty sure it was over, the they rallied and evened the score at 13. They were up 14-13 when one of the other team’s hitters blasted a shot that was initially called out. Our girls celebrated; the parents were screaming. And then the call was reversed: there had been a touch on the block. 14-14. And how did it end? The girls rallied again and won 16-14:

And afterward — a group picture with both teams.

K, the Boy, and Babcia, meanwhile, were having a fine day as well.

After church, they went to a relatively new cafe: Old Europe Cafe. The consensus among the Polish community: a nice cafe with a real Krakow-cafe feel.

Afterward, a walk in our lovely Falls Park.

In the evening, the Boy and I played cars a while — again. Just like old times.

Use It or Lose It

There was a post on a friend’s account about the importance of “training up a child” (evangelicals especially like to use that Biblical term) to be a Christian. The post hit on a theme I harp on in a secular sense all the time: you’ve got one shot with your kids. But they took it in a different direction:

You have one shot to raise your children in church.

That’s all you get. One. When it’s gone, it’s gone forever. You can’t go back. You don’t get a redo.

As parents we accomplished our life’s greatest accomplishment. We raised our kids in church.

What they do with that is up to them, but we did our best. I’ll stand before God knowing that.

Faith is often inherited. So is a lack of it.

I am so thankful I heard that while my children were little. I determined then and there to get my kids as close to Heaven as I could. I knew I couldn’t save them, but I could raise them in church. I could get them in His presence. I could get them to an altar.

Nothing, not football, not baseball, not Boy Scouts, not a Playstation, not a demanding coach, not a job, not any other distraction was going to keep them out of church. I stood face to face with the devil on more than one occasion fighting some temptation to keep my kids out of church. Often, the devil was in the mirror.

But thanks be to God, we did it. We raised our kids in church.

Now, before 2023 begins, I remind all the parents:

You get one shot. It’s precious, scarce, and fleeting. Use it or lose it.

The post came with a picture:

It got me thinking again about the roll of imitation in the raising of a Christian child. Consider two scenarios:

Scenario 1

The children huddled at the altar railing in the picture: why are they doing that? Because they saw adults in their community do it. Why are they experiencing such a flood of emotion? Because churches run their services in a way to create that emotion: soft music, quiet speaking, repetition. Why do these kids think it’s the Holy Spirit doing this in their life? Because their parents told them that emotion comes from the Holy Spirit.

Scenario 2

Kids visit a science exhibition to learn about waves and then participate in a science exhibition demonstrating those waves. They’ve given tools to measure those waves. They’re taught to make predictions about what changing the amplitude of a wave will do to the sound, then they test and check their predictions. They’re shown the difference between a sine wave and a cosine wave and given a chance to predict what will happen if both occur at the same time at the same wavelength and amplitude. And then they check their predictions.

“Faith is often inherited. So is a lack of it.” I couldn’t agree more about the first statement, but there are many causes to the second. When kids realize the difference between these two scenarios, it might lead to doubt.

  • The first is based entirely on trusting how others tell you to interpret reality. It offers no predictive capability and is limited in its scope.
  • The second is open to questioning (indeed, encourages it) and offers ways to verify its claims. It has a built-in predictive capacity and is almost unlimited in scope.

This is the reason fundamentalist Christians don’t like science.

The End Is Not In Sight

When facing troubling times, we’re always hoping we’ve reached a point where the worst of it is behind us, and we can start thinking of a return to normalcy.

When Nana went into the hospital in late 2018 after her pulmonary embolism, we all wondered when we’d reached a point where the worst was behind us. We thought it was when she came home the first time, but she had problems again and was readmitted. We thought it was when she was discharged and about to head to rehabilitation, but then she came down with shingles, which made any rehabilitation impossibly painful. It was around that time that I found myself wondering if she might never get out of that bed. In fact, she never did. I am still haunted with guilt about that period.

When the pandemic started making news in early 2020 and then everything shut down, we were thrown into that uncertain uncertainty: we didn’t even know what we didn’t know. For a while, I thought it was going to be the new normal for the foreseeable future, then I thought it was going to be the new normal for an indefinite but ever-more-stressful period of time. It wasn’t until the end of the summer and the plan to start heading back to school started to settle into place that I thought we might reach a point where we knew the worst was behind us. Death counts were dropping. Infection rates were falling. Maybe, just maybe, we’d reached a plateau.

When Papa started his decline, which was given a Parkinson’s diagnosis, we wondered when all his troubles might plateau and reach a new normal, at least for a while. We got the diagnosis, we got him on the new meds, and we got a new normal. A new Papa. Until the next decline, when it would all repeat. And then we got a new normal and a new Papa. A little less mobile. A little less cognitively present. But a plateau nonetheless. Until the next decline. The new normals were only temporary pauses in a long decline and only “normal” in the sense that someone suffering a degenerative condition like Parkinson’s could use that term.

Each scenario was — and I know this is an overused metaphor — a rollercoaster ride. A plateau means things are worsening, which means in a sense that things are better. Any day not worse than the day before is a good day in those situations. And just as rollercoasters can dizzy us and sicken our stomachs, the stress of chronic illness can do that to everyone around the sufferer. Everyone just wants the ups and downs, the flips and twists, to stop for just long enough (at least) for us to get our bearings and then catch our breath. We want to take a break from mysterious words like gastroenteritis and leukocytoclastic vasculitis, none more than the poor kid suffering from it. We want to know that the worst is behind us, that there’s hope that within some days, weeks, or (at worst) months, we’ll be back to normal. Our old normal.

Basketball

The Boy’s team is in the midst running drills when I walk in. They’re going one-on-one from the top of the key. When it’s his turn to take the offensive drill, he dribbles in, picks up the ball quite far from the basket, and tries to lob it over the defender. An air ball. And I can see the disappointment and disgust in his face.

He heads back to the backcourt line (I think that’s what it’s called) and stands in line for his next turn, but he seems to let anyone in front of him who wants to take an earlier turn. And there are plenty who want to.

Eventually, he drifts into the background as others excitedly take their turns, and he ends up leaning against the wall and watching the others. He pulls on his hoodie and sits down.

Later, when they’re scrimmaging, he does the best he can with the knowledge he has, but the truth is, we never watch basketball so he’s got nothing to imitate. And I really know very little about the sport, so I’m of little help to him. He does his best, but it’s clear the other boys have had lots of experience playing basketball in their neighborhood.

“I never get passes,” he’ll say later in the car. “Because I’m just not as good as they are.” All he sees are his deficits, and the lack of inclusion from other boys confirms it in his mind. When he does get a pass, it’s like he wants to get it out of his hands as fast as possible.

It’s tough to watch: I can certainly relate. I was never that confident when I found myself playing basketball, and I hated playing with those who were much better. I, too, felt I was out of my comfort zone.

But the Boy soldiers through, going to each practice, giving it his best show.

“I admire you for that, buddy,” I tell him on the way home.

“Thank you,” he says, then adds after a moment, “I don’t think basketball is for me.”

Tuesday Back

The Girl went back to school today for the first time since Friday before last, as in January 5. It’s been a tough ten days, and we still have issues ahead of us, but at least we’re to a point where something of a normal life can return. I never missed ten days for an illness, but I missed significant time in the first semester because of having to go to the Feast of Tabernacles every year (along with the Feast of Trumpets and Atonement, which meant missing more school days). If I’d been as worried about my grades as L is about hers, that probably would have caused me more stress than it did. But then, the founder of our little sect died (38 years ago today, in fact), the new leader made a few changes, and the FOT (as we called it) became a thing of the past. Something the Girl doesn’t have to worry about.

The Boy is still frustrated with his schedule this semester, particularly that he doesn’t have PE anymore. In middle school, I hated PE. In the mid-eighties in Virginia (maybe not the whole state, but at least in our area), there was none of this “you can only fail once before high school” mentality that’s the standard here. (There are benefits to that, to be sure, but I’ve had kids tell me, “I’ve already failed once. There’s nothing you can do to me,” and then promptly do nothing the entire year.) But we didn’t have that, so kids could fail two or three times before getting to high school, which is why when I was in seventh grade (it was a junior high, with only two grades), there were two sixteen-year-old eighth graders. Dodgeball, which we played with those stinging rubber kickball balls, was utter hell. Those kids were strong. But fortunately, E doesn’t have that worry, so he consequently loves PE.

Two ways my childhood was so very different from our children’s.

Exploring

Life is about the moment, making the most of the now. Nothing new there.

But we tend to forget it in health emergencies (who can live in the now then?!),

shopping (it is a little meditative at times, but really, we could do without),

holidays (wonderful, but don’t you get tired of them after a while and need a year’s rest?),

and the like.

51

Growing up, birthdays were never of any importance to me. Our sect taught that the celebration of birthdays was a sinful vanity and that those truly trying to “be like Christ” would have no interest in shallow self-adulation. So I never once had a birthday party growing up, and I don’t really recall much acknowledgment of my birthday than “Hey, you’re nine today. Really growing up fast!”

One outcome of this is my apathy toward my own birthday. I’ve managed to adapt from my upbringing and realize that it is important for other people to have their birthdays recognized and celebrated, but I just don’t really care that much about my own. I might use it as an occasion to splurge and buy a cigar that’s a little pricier than what I normally have (time this evening for a beloved Partagas Black Label — a beast of a cigar), but that’s about it.

Saying all of that, though, makes me feel I’m somehow condemning Nana and Papa. But they were only following orders: the church taught; they followed. They thought they were doing the best for me. And really, how is it different from anyone else in any other religion? The religion has strictures; either its adherents follow them or they don’t. “It’s Friday. I really shouldn’t eat meat,” Babcia said just yesterday, illustrating that point perfectly. So I don’t blame my parents in any sense of the word. But I am glad that I’m not raising them in such a strictly religious environment.


Is there a substantial difference between “Nobody’s like me” and “Nobody likes me?” Is there anything more valuable than a friend, a real friend you can trust, and who can make your day brighter? Can there be anything more difficult to a young sixth grader than losing the only friend he’s made in his new school (where either his elementary school friends don’t go or they are on a different team)? No, the Boy’s friend didn’t die, but he’s moving, and the Boy can’t take it.

He’s having such a hard time making friends because, in part, despite what I said above, we are raising our kids differently than most people around here. Football? I never watch it; E knows next to nothing about it. Video games? We never bought a console for either child. Restaurants? We rarely eat out. All the little things that kids can connect on, our kids don’t have. L has made up for it. In high school, she’s found her spot, and she even goes to Friday night football games. “I have no idea what’s going on,” she cheerily admits, “but I’m not going there for the game.”


So the Boy has been having a hard time with his social life, a hard time with one boy in particular who seems to be using him, a hard time with so many things. And the Girl has been having some ridiculously painful (but thankfully, not long-term serious) medical issues that make it difficult to sleep at night. And last night, they both exploded, leaving all four of his sleep-deprived and exhausted — physically, emotionally, and mentally.

That’s why for most of the day, we stayed home, doing as little as possible. L’s pain finally calmed down and she was able to sleep; K did some grocery shopping and then spent the rest of the day relaxing as the Girl slept, Babcia watched Polish TV on the computer, and the Boy and I played with his cars (first time in a long time we’ve done that).

In the evening, K wanted to head back to the store to get some kind of cake for me. The Girl, feeling better than she’s felt in probably a week, decided to go with her. And so they lit some candles and sang “Sto Lat” for me.

And then the Boy gave me his gift: a bespoke card with a twenty dollar bill in it. I looked at K, thinking maybe she’d given it to him to tuck in there, but as little surprise as I, she shook her head. He was giving me his own money.

I just about lost it right there…

The Coming Hell

If only you knew the hell coming in the late evening…